Friday, November 13, 2009

Lost of my one of the precious jewel



Current mood: okay

Salam and Hi...
Here I have something to share....It's soooooo sad...My lovely jewel named Love had leaved my family and I...It's kinda unpredictable...Okayh here's the story ;

Love had been sicked since two week before she passed away.Before she say farewell, she's acting weird. She so quiet and not energetic as before. We are so pity looking at her. Her unique shiny bright eyes turns sad. Because we cannot bear looking her suffer like that, my mother and my younger sis called a vet. The vet gave her injection, vitamins and else. The vet said she became like that because she doesn't want to eat. He also said that Love have to breastfeed, but unfortunately Love kinda doesn't interested to milk. Because of that her antibody was low.

After the injection/treatment.
Her leg still "kebas" because the injection. She walking even slowly. Sadly, she had slept besides me on the afternoon before she go. The evening, she slept beside my younger sis. She feel so warm.

On the night.
After we eat, we gave Love some milk and plain water (through syringe). She refuse but we have to push her. If don't she'll be worst. Her condition still not stable. The vet said she maybe recover after 3 days. So, we kinda relieve to hear that. My mother went to perform prayer. Before that, she said that Love looks like she thirsty. But, me, foolish me busy with my work. So, i said i'll give her after my mom finish performing solat.

8.20 p.m.

"Iqa, look at Love. She's like......" my mother said. I asked her, what she looks like?
At that time, I saw Zorro( her sister ) went out from the cage. I looked at Love. There's no breathing. My mom said to me "Iqa, take her out. Check her pulse." But,I am too sad. Suddenly, i ran from the cage. I burst into tears. I asked my younger sis to check Love. She checked.


At 8.35 p.m

Love was confirmed dead. Her body was cold. I feel soooooo sad. It feels like the whole world fall on me. I put  blamed on me. Maybe, she dead because I'm not giving her water. but, my mom said it's not. God love her more than I do. But, maybe she cannot bear with the injection since she still sick. But she needed that. It's God's will. With gallon of tears, i let her go.

My mom, sis and me burried her with our own hand. My father and elder sis was not there because he's outstation and my sis at campus. I feel so sad that they doesn't have time to see Love. Buncit are there. Buncit also licked Love for last time. We gave our kissed and burried Love.

Late night

My eyes are swelling. I hardly to sleep. Buncit ( Love's mother ) find her. Zorro meow here and there. Probably feel lonely sleep by herself. At last, i let Zorro to sleep with her mother. Pity them. This is the worst cry i ever had. Farewell Love.

There's many things to tell. But, i cannot stand it. The biggest cry may happen again if i continue. However, if anyone mention her name, i dun feel sad. Tears cannot burst from my eyes probably because i've stress my eyes badly.

But, Life's must go on. If i continue regretting and crying, it's meaningless. It's like i cannot accept God's will. and i'm sure, Love doesn't want me to cry over her lost. I accept God's will. Al-Fatihah to you, my precious Love. I'll take a better care of Buncit and Zorro.

Sadly acceptance,
Syafiqah