Never Wanna Say Hello...

Salam and hi..

I'm posting this some sort of poem because I suddenly realized that I really hard to say hello...I tend to get scared of people, challenges, future and many more...So, I decided to clear up this attitude slowly ( not completely) Like older said, I'm kinda living in the past..I hope you enjoy reading my poem...For those who had same feeling or attitude with me, this is piece of art...I dedicate for YOU...

Never Want To Say Hello

I'm wondering,

Will I wake up in tomorrow morning?

What will I do to make my parents' proud?

It's bustling around me every day..

Maybe even second...

I'm the one who recalled the past

I'm the one who regret the past

I'm the one who proud of my past

I'm the one who frightened by my past

I'm the one who still live in the past

Everyday,

In my thought...

When I'm about to build my future..

I thought about the present

When I'm about to build independence..

I don't think I could live without them

When I'm about to build new interest..

I already felt the challenges I will get

All..

Without trying,

Without thinking

Sometimes, nearly losing Him..

Around,

Felt the heat of my energy

Deep in my heart I'm afraid of losing it

Felt the heat of my confidence

Deep in my soul I'm thinking over it

Felt the heat of my strength

Deep in my body I'm shivered defense it

I'm the professional actress in real world

Like amatur in heart and soul

It's time to make a move

It's time to make decision

It's time to make up my own mind

No assistant

Decide with my own decision

With the help of Allah..

I knew I could..

Lead me to your path

Lit me with your guidance

Don't let me sank,

Don't let me drown...

I need you..them..

To let bygone be bygone...

Clueless, 

Syafiqah